Submisson...

Hey all,
Sorry this post is a couple days late, but I actually greatly struggle in this area of my life. For me I competely kow and understand that it is God's will that is best for my life, but for some reson submitting everything to him is so hard for me. I am a perfectionist for sure, and the idea of giving up control is scary.
The quote that really got me thinking was "But not this: Christ not only died a 'cross-death,' he lived a 'cross-life.'" Sometimes I forget it is a lifestyle, a choice I make every morning when I wake up and one I make a hundred times throughout each day. It becomes a willingness to serve no matter what the consequences, whether it be ridicule, slander, or even death. For me, Philippians 2 just resonated. My goal shouldn't be to bring myself glory and have equality with God, but instead strive to be his servant, strive to be the least of these. Being forced to take a step back and humble myself before the cross reminds me that living a life of submission is the closest I can get to living a Christ-like life. And when I really think about it, that is what I want the most for me life, and if that means being willing to be walked all over, surrender my rights, get taken advantage of, be invisible, have dicipline, serve silently, be loyal, be vulnerable,  have kindness, ask questions and listen, have compassion, o serve the last and the least, and aspire to slavery, then Lord please help me live this way. I am giving up control and submitting my life to you.

I love you all! Have a Christ-filled week!
Kendall