Week 2

How coincidental! I just had a music class tonight where we talked a great deal on meditation :D  I think this is cool.
I have a personal love for meditation in both the 'yoga' way and the Christian way. Not only does the yoga one free my mind, it helps me feel balanced. But Oh My Gosh! How important this Christian take is to me!!! If I could make an idea tangible just to hug it, this one is by far it. (:
When the intro says we use this term as "to muse" yes! ''to ponder'' yes! and "to reflec", never have I agreed more. Because, it is true; our mind, emotion and will are so greatly influenced by meditation and I am proof of that.
When I meditate, I figure things out. I feel like God shows me the ways to help make my mind click and better understand something I feel He's put on my mind. Then I can walk confidently in God and my path.
I relate, like so many others do, to Isaiah 53:6
I had a psychological disorder and I liked it. I lived happily and clung to my multiple personalities to the point I would even believe in my own lies. I never thought it was such a big deal as to be called a sin, to knowingly decide to live this way and let it develop without a care about my consequences.  I hurt others in my lies, I got their hopes up and worst of all, I didn't know my own identity when I stood in the presence of God. I was a sheep that strayed.
I tried a few times to get rid of all of it. Once I stayed true to myself for 3 months before they came back. And I was so relieved when they came back. I kept thinking that I would know when they would finally have to leave and until then, they were my special secret in life that made me feel great. But just as the other scripture says, I was also looking for some bg bang. God would make a big fuss about it for me and I would come running back to Him like a lost child ready to learn again. I was looking for that great earthquake and winds, like in Kings.
In time He came to me and told me it was time to let all my other parts go. God helped me through that. And when He did, there was no big earthquake, not even in a metaphoric way. He was the big deal. God himself in that moment was as striking and vivid and there as any fire.
I still will never forget that strong and firm presence. And I never would have come to that moment the same if I hadn't meditated.