catching up!!

• FRIENDS!
  
  I’m SO sorry for being so behind on this… life has just gotten to much in the way but I’m finally finding time to write this down!
  
  Service
  
  I definitely think that I tend to be more service oriented then servant oriented. I love serving Jesus…. as long as I have control over who I get to serve and when I can serve, etc. And I think that for the longest time, I convinced myself that that is all that God wants from me… that that is all that he calls me to… to serve on my terms and my conditions. But God calls all of us to be servant to him…. Giving up our right to be in charge, letting go of all of our wants and desires and surrendering our plans and what we want to him. We can be used to God’s fullest potential once we give up the control and giving ourselves the opportunity to experience the great freedom of participating in His will and plan fully. We have the privilege of getting to be a servant to our King… why wouldn’t we want to experience the full greatest joy and peace and freedom? It takes courage and boldness to completely let everything go but what a blessing to get to be a servant to our Savior, vulnerable and ready to tell everyone of this indescribable joy and love and peace.
  
  Celebration
  
  Coming back home and adjusting to life back with the family has been really hard. My family is going through a lot with my sister right now and its been hard to try to focus on the positives of life when it just seems like we are stuck in a world of darkness. Being home so far has kinda made me forget what is at the heart of Christianity and the center of our faith: CELEBRATION. Celebrating that our Savior has won, celebrating that despite being in a storm of pain and confusion, Christ is taking hold of us as we press on, celebrating how loved we are by our Savior, celebrating the grace He has generously bestowed on us, celebrating how we are daughters and sons to the King of the Universe.... how can our response to all of these truths not be celebration? THIS is our light and hope amongst all the anger and pain. THIS is what we should be turning and clinging to... I had simply forgotten since being home who God is and who He claims to be and how celebration is the heart of Christ.